Lately, I haven't had enough money to close deals, so my life has become more structured. I go out for dinner after work and go to bed at 11 pm. My work efficiency has also improved; the workshop foreman and line leader even praised me for being quick. Before, when I had contracts, I would constantly check to see if I was making money. If I was stuck with losses, I wouldn't sleep a wink all night; I was constantly anxious. When I lost money, I felt like cursing, smashing things, and throwing my phone.