My biggest problem right now isn't my capital, but my lack of determination. In the past, even if I had to borrow, I would have found a way to scrape together the capital and keep going!
But this time, I have no such desire at all. I don't even feel like trading anymore. After some self-analysis, I've come up with two main reasons. First, I did make some money in the last wave, which was like putting shoes on my feet. I've lost my fighting spirit. Even without trading, I'm making a decent income from other sources. I'm also afraid of losing. I've finally made it out of this situation, and if I mess around a few more times, I'll be back in the water. It would be a joke.
Secondly, we've truly seen the true face of the counterfeit industry. To use a vivid metaphor, this scene is like a scene from Journey to the West. The demons use sleight of hand or magic to transform impoverished mountains and rivers, demonic spirits, and monsters into magnificent manors and graceful beauties. We're captivated, enchanted, and lost in dreams of wealth. But one day, for some reason, the magic breaks down, and we suddenly see the beautiful woman we embraced every day is a rosy skull with the five poisonous creatures crawling in its eye sockets, and the piles of gold, silver, and jewelry are piles of stinking manure. After such a shock, can you still hold onto them?
I'm lost, and I really need to adjust my mindset. Fortunately, I've had many experiences of making big gains with small capital. After this thorough cleanup, all the counterfeit chips have been taken away by market makers, and the counterfeit contracts have been cleaned up. A huge counterfeit market is very likely to come, and it's entirely possible to make big gains with small capital.
This viral flu in Singapore was really bad. I fell ill right after returning, and I heard many friends who went there also got sick. I'm going to take care of myself first, and I'll see what to do next once I'm better. Although I'm not trading right now, I can't change my routine for a while. I still wake up several times in the middle of the night to check the market. The prices of the two altcoins I opened yesterday have basically returned to normal, which is more devastating than a margin call, because my positions are gone. There's nothing more painful in trading than this.
Finally, a word of encouragement to those who, like me, have experienced this huge market crash: as long as you stay in this industry, you will eventually seize your opportunity to turn things around. When you do, you'll be able to talk about your experience today with a smile. It's a lesson and a growth, and our lives have become more colorful because of it. I wish us all a speedy recovery from this difficult situation. Let's encourage each other!
