Today I saw someone analyze that Eileen Gu suffers from "elite trauma"—a constant sense of urgency driven by meritocracy, a fear of losing, and a fear of being forgotten.
However, I vaguely remember reading one of her diary entries before, and my conclusion was completely the opposite: Gu is someone who truly masters the power of the present moment and lives with a sense of presence.
The difference lies in the fact that the former is driven by external results and evaluations, while the latter is driven by internal experience/subjectivity.
"I want the lifeblood of every experience—ecstasy, despair, hope, fear, doubt, triumph."
This existentialist view of life makes many values in our traditional context that implicitly contain "causal models + utilitarian rewards" worth re-examining. For example, "hard work and perseverance," "accumulating knowledge and experience before making a breakthrough," and "hard work pays off" seem to constantly imbue life with social instrumental attributes, and we are often deeply trapped in them without realizing it.