Everything I'm doing now is to make myself happy. I can only be happy; if I'm not, I'll die. In the past, whenever I suffered misfortune, I contemplated suicide. It wasn't because I was in pain; it was because I felt it was meaningless. This whole life was pointless; I didn't want to play this game anymore. A few years earlier, I would have tried to solve things, but I've already tried my best. I've solved far too many problems in my life; I don't want to solve them again. Moreover, I've realized over this long period that solving problems hasn't made me better; personal effort has a negligible effect, merely helping me get through it. So my current life motto is: I can only be happy. I don't want any negative factors affecting my happiness in my life. This isn't a pessimistic topic. When you're full of hope for life, cherish your life. When you lose hope, seize every moment of happiness. I'm very happy. I had a very happy winter. The money I need for my happiness is what I can earn, and that's enough. I'm no longer thinking about the future. I don't know if you've seen the movie about a Black woman who, after being misdiagnosed with a brain tumor, adopted a nonchalant attitude towards life, and this attitude led to a happy life. As for me, I've suffered immense trauma from life that I can't recover from. I don't think there's anything wrong with that; it's all in the past. I'm quite happy now, and I'm not as socially anxious as I used to be. I'm now a fully socialized human being. I'm still not a very good driver; I've been in four car accidents this year, but I still drive myself. I really don't care. Go ahead and run me over if you dare. I've endured the pain, and I've enjoyed the happiness. I have no regrets in my life. If I had to say, it's that I still think I'm not good-looking. No matter how much psychological counseling I do, I still can't be confident with this face. That's why many friends have noticed I've suddenly lost a lot of weight recently—it's because I'm planning to get plastic surgery. I want to experience the life of a beautiful woman. As long as I live, I possess all the desires of a human being. I don't know how to prove to everyone that I'm a normal person, but I truly am. You can think of me as a 70-year-old woman who doesn't have much to do every day; I just entertain myself and play. In real life, people often ask me, "What's your source of income?" It's probably from past savings—not enough to make me incredibly wealthy, but just enough to keep me happy. Some people, even in their sixties or seventies, remain childlike. I'm easily drawn to these people—simple and joyful. That's a lucky thing; it means they haven't suffered much in their lives, or even if they have, it wasn't to the point of breaking their mental defenses. I've broken down far too many times. I don't have the energy to rebuild, and I don't want to anymore. I live each day to the fullest, and I'm happy. I hope everyone is happy.

My order of telbereptide, shipped directly from Japan, took half a month! It finally arrived, time to dig in! Suppressing my appetite on my own was too painful. I need to get back to science.

I feel like I've become much more easily satisfied since losing weight. Before, I was constantly anxious about not making enough money, interpersonal relationships, and romantic problems. Frankly, these kinds of worries stem from having too high desires, wanting too much, and internally draining my energy. A few days of fasting calms me down. Hunger solves all anxiety. When you're starving to the point where even basic survival isn't enough, all worldly desires disappear, and all that's left in your mind is the desire to eat. Now, just thinking about what I can eat gives me something to look forward to each day. Even a slice of toast makes me happy. Hope everyone gets a weight loss and a new account high in December! Thanks to @bcgame for sponsoring the winter clothes! #BCGAME

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So sleepy

Christmas is coming!

I'm a piece of trash 🥲

Shoot you

People ask me why I went to Shenzhen. It's because the food there is quite bland. When I eat, tears well up and mix with the rice, making the saltiness just right.

It'll look good after some tidying up and editing. I forgot to bring any merchandise for the photos. Thanks to @bcgame for sponsoring | #BCGAME