Written After the Storm
For the two or three hours after waking up and receiving the liquidation email, I felt like I was trapped in a strange dream. I could respond to those around me and act normally, but my heart remained calm. It was a long-lost peace, a peace I hadn't felt since Trump's cryptocurrency launch.
Although my positions were gone, I felt a sense of relief. They say Trump's cryptocurrency launch was a watershed in life, and for me, this watershed must have marked a full stop.
Since Trump's arrival, AI memes have crumbled like sandcastles in the waves, Sol's candlesticks resembled severed parachutes, and the spot positions I hadn't yet sold were shattered by the tariff war. During this period, Usual also derailed, and I was being walked around by BSC and Bonk. My positions, like fine sand, never faltered, until finally, XPL's liquidation on Hyperliquid broke my mental defenses.
The days that followed were filled with confusion and frenzy. My group friends even noticed the problem and offered their advice:
"Attitude is the best feng shui, Xiao Saoge."
"What on earth made Xiao Saoge like this?"
"I've noticed that whenever the whole group gets stuck with something, only Xiao Saoge cries out, while we silently endure the pain."
"Brother Dao needs to stick to his own style, otherwise things will get chaotic."
"I feel like Xiao Daoge just does whatever the group says."
"Something went wrong after the XPL margin call."
Although I listened, I completely lost my ability to handle the situation. I kept repeating the same old routine: I didn't dare buy at first, then I resorted to FOMO trading after the market went up, then kept going higher and higher, then I sold my stocks when they fell, and then I kept going higher... Looking back now, I can't help but remember how foolish I was when I first started trading crypto in 2018.
Now that things are calm, I'm going to empty my mind and start over. As Bruce Lee once said, "Empty your cup so you can fill it up; be empty to achieve perfection."
On my way home this afternoon, "Let It Go" happened to be playing on YouTube, and it seemed like the perfect description of the future:
It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all
It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
…
Here I stand and here I stay
Let the storm rage on
The cold never bothered me anyway
Encouragement to all my fellow travelers