After a year of online dating, I lied to my parents, saying I was going to work and study. I secretly saved six months' salary, bought a one-way ticket, and traveled alone to her city. I thought I was going to find love, but it turned out to be a plunge into an abyss.
Upon arriving in her city, unfamiliar with everything, I was scammed out of five thousand yuan. That was money I had painstakingly saved. I felt anxious and wronged, but the thought of seeing her soon made me grit my teeth and endure it.
Finally, I met her. Just like online, I was nervous and happy. We ate together and watched a movie. The whole time, I secretly watched her, feeling that all the hardship of the past six months, the struggle to save the money, and the sadness of being scammed were worth it.
After the movie, she said she had to go back to her dorm to finish her homework and had to leave. I stood there, obediently watching her leave. As her figure receded into the distance, I secretly smiled to myself, feeling that I had finally grasped the happiness I wanted.
I dragged my luggage alone and found a cheap hotel to stay in. Lying in bed, her image filled my mind, and I tossed and turned, unable to sleep. I missed her so much that I threw on a coat and went downstairs to buy some late-night snacks and maybe get some fresh air to calm myself down.
But at the intersection right below the hotel, I saw a scene I'll never forget.
She hadn't gone back to her dorm; she was standing with a strange guy. They hugged for a very long time, so long that I stood in the shadows, my hands and feet numb with cold. Then, I watched as she stood on tiptoe and kissed him.
In that instant, all my joy, anticipation, and courage shattered completely.
Suddenly, I missed home, my parents, the warm meals they provided, and the fact that they would never lie to me. For someone I'd never met, I'd lied to my loving parents, spent half a year's savings, been cheated and played in a strange city, and this was the end result.
My heart was choked with grief, I couldn't breathe, I was too heartbroken to speak, I couldn't even cry. Right now, I don't want to think about anything, I don't want to ask anything. I just want to play NBA All-Star games and ranked games. Anyone want to play together? Let me temporarily forget all this awfulness, forget this city where I poured my heart out, only to be abandoned in the end, forget this love that was a complete lie from beginning to end.
It really hurts so much, it hurts so much I just want to hide in the game and catch my breath. By the way, anyone want to play League of Legends together? I'm waiting online, it's urgent.
